First off: My blog will be going through a couple of changes–I need to make a banner, one that fits me. One that will hopefully keep me blogging for years to come. I’m wanting something that resonates with me. So expect a little ‘construction’ if you will, as I work on a banner and fiddle around with the layout colors and all that jazz Yes, it will probably involve a certain doxie boy. That just means I have to get off my bum and DRAW HIM >3 So yes, check back periodically (or hey! Every day! ) to see the New-and-Improved Kodi-blog!
So I’ve been running around like a chicken with its head cut off (and believe me, I was chased just last year by a headless chicken, and it’s terrifying!) trying to figure out what I’m doing. Yeah, I write. I’ve been writing since I was old enough to scribble lines on paper and staple a ‘book’ (and I ended up stapling my finger and, to hide the evidence, said the cat bit me as my finger bled. I was told not to mistreat the cat and she wouldn’t bite me). I’ve had a lifelong dream of being published, of having people (unrelated people!) read my books and go “Man, when does the next one come out?” It’s just something I’ve been wanting…for forever. I love books.
My family told me I was good (but they’re family. They’re gonna say that!) but I didn’t believe them. My writer’s group started asking when I was going to start putting stuff out. So last year, I got a couple of short fantasy stories published in two anthologies and have a third accepted and on hold. It gave me hope that yes, I truly WAS good enough. But I didn’t have direction. I wasn’t sure where to go next; I just lived by the chant “Just Keep Writing!” with the dream of someday being great enough to have beautiful YA fantasy books on the shelves at Borders, maybe even someday hitting the NYT. Big dreams, but if we don’t have dreams, what do we have?
This past year, I reworked and rewrote a novel that I feel is, quite possibly, The One for me. And now it comes down to Decision Time. Do I go the Traditional route? Do I aim for querying agents, aim to have my books in bookstores even though bookstores are slowly becoming a dying breed? Or do I embrace the New Age of e-books and Indie publishing? (and I’ll admit, I adore e-books. I love my Kindle and you can’t beat buying a well-written, epic book under 5 bucks with a click of your mouse!) I’ll have to deal with anxiety and stress either way. Each one has their pros and cons.
But no matter how much I read and research, I’ll decide “Yes, I’m going Trad!” one day, and then be iffy the next. This isn’t just me wanting a book out to see my name in print; I’m not a one-trick pony. I have books in me, hundreds of books needing life breathed into them. I want to make this my life. I want to, someday, not have to worry about finding a job that I can work despite my disabilities.
I’m the kind of person to walk around a pond 30 times on a hot summer day, circling it but not daring to dip a foot in, afraid that I’ll drown. But I know that if I just…jump, fling myself into the water headfirst without a second thought, I could find out I’m a really great swimmer! (Or, hey, if you wanna be negative, I could drown! LOL Always a possibility!)
I think, for me, I’m gonna have to pick one and go for it. No thinking, just doing. But until I decide? I’m gonna have to “Just Keep Writing!”
What about you? If you’re a writer aiming for publication, which path have you decided to head down? What are your opinions/ideas on the subject, or the reasons for your decision? Readers: do you have a preference between indie or traditionally published books, or are they all ‘just books’ to you? I’d love to hear feedback